Seasoning butter and sugar

"  I don't mind how many tears I have to fall, as long as the ending is a happy ending, "

It felt as if it has already been a very long time, but turn behind and look, I didn't really walk very far.
Ahead of me there's still a super long way more till the end.
To be honest, many things I still keep inside my heart. No matter how old that memory is, I still keep it and I couldn't let it go.
For example, one of the most unforgettable moment I remember was when I was standard two, my family having big financial issues. My father left 2bucks in his pocket, but he still would find a way to buy me a set of McD kids meal and bring it to school for me. Everyone was so envy. They kept praising him that he was a good father and I was so lucky.
But now.. Sigh..

I remember my so call ' first love' that only existed for 3 weeks and having a 'curse' that every guy I be with will never last more then 3 months.
Yeap! I call it a 'curse'.  It lasted 3years! Every relationship I'm in really didn't lasted for more then 3 months.
Have times when I was fat and was always the joke among my friends. Open up my cupboard and you can see black, black and black colour tops. Not to mention, I have many black jackets.
Friends would laugh at my teeth cause to be honest until now, I have hideous teeth.

4 years back, my first longest relationship, 2 and a half years.Too many arguments, over protected and everything when K-wired. 1 year back, another relationship that lasted a year and fall apart because both needed the same thing.
I lost my best friend. I miss her. But shit happens and life got to move on.
I lost my family. Everything fall to pieces.
I am okay for so many breakdowns and being pushed around or even being hurt by hundreds of thousands of people..
Just promise me, that my ending would be happy.
I pray...
Please hear me..

xoxo
Chubbychic